The Reiki “Sensitivity” Trap
What if my struggle to feel the Reiki energy flowing was just a distraction from focusing on what really mattered: find balance.
It still amazes me how I transitioned from a person who almost gave up Reiki entirely to someone who practices this beautiful art form efficiently.
Back then, I was so frustrated I couldn’t feel Reiki that I forgot why I was there in the first place.
But I didn’t know what else to look for.
I thought this is what I needed to confirm that what I was doing was right.
I had no idea there are 3 sensitivity levels that I should be aware of … more on this in a moment.
Funny how things turn out.
Maybe I got lucky, or it was meant to be.
What’s important is that I realized there is a way to overcome this blockage without relying on luck to bring back confidence.
I still remember how enthusiastic I was when I first started.
Helping others seemed like an obvious goal. I thought that I have to share “my gift” with the world, and if my intentions were honest, then I’ll receive guidance.
And I did.
Not as I imagined, but in the best way for me.
I forgot that I have to help myself first.
Actually, it didn’t even cross my mind.
I overlooked the importance of understanding what Reiki does, what to expect, and how to use it to find balance.
I rushed into doing many things at once, and because I wasn’t feeling the energy flowing, I lost confidence in my ability to practice.
It didn’t take long before doubt settled in, and I entered a vicious circle.
• Small signs of confusion led to a drop in self-trust;
• The lack of self-trust made me question my abilities;
• I lost faith and almost gave up;
Looking back, I can’t believe how the solution to these roadblocks was hiding in plain sight.
I’ve been practicing and teaching Reiki for over 15 years. It’s been a beautiful ride but had its share of ups and downs.
Being close to giving up because I was confused and couldn’t feel the universal energy flowing was one of them.
This was before I became a Reiki Master.
The early stages are the most difficult.
Still, the voice in the back of my head kept my motivation alive:
“Reiki is here, and it can help”…
But it’s only human nature to want to quit instead of pushing through, especially when there are no tangible results on the horizon.
My tipping point was when I came back from a month-long trip abroad.
Being among strangers and far from home led to a serious emotional imbalance.
I was young and vulnerable.
Luckily, I had the support of my Reiki teacher and fellow practitioners. It’s amazing how much guidance like-minded people can offer.
When I entered his office, I immediately noticed 2 jars on a dark-wood desk in the opposite corner of the room.
Both were half-way filled with cooked rice.
One said: “With Light”.
The other: “Without Light”.
I was puzzled but curious to know what their story was.
For the past 30 days, my teacher and his students sent Reiki daily to the jar labeled “With Light”.
While the rice in the other one was left alone and started to go bad, this one was still fresh and white.
Probably it wasn’t eatable, but the difference was remarkable.
It then occurred to me … like a revelation.
“Did the rice feel the light flowing?”
I’m assuming it didn’t…
But my problem didn’t disappear, so I told my teacher that I had trouble perceiving the universal life force energy.
I felt useless and angry that even the rice could do it.
Was there something wrong with me?
My Reiki master smiled sympathetically because he knew what was happening.
I was the sufferer of my own ignorance. Truth be told, I didn’t even know what I was missing.
My teacher told me that there are 3 levels of sensitivity:
Still, there’s no hard rule, and one cannot determine with perfect accuracy which category s/he belongs to.
The terms are pretty straightforward.
Someone who doesn’t feel Reiki flowing could actually be extra-sensitive. This happens for her own protection because otherwise, she wouldn’t be able to control those experiences.
What’s important is to be aware of this segmentation and not try to label ourselves.
Whatever the case, the good news is that Reiki works as it did for the rice.
Still … it’s hard to practice Reiki without tangible results.
The way we view this matter is actually the problem, not us nor Reiki.
So .. how can one bring back the lost confidence and practice Reiki efficiently and with confidence?
The answer … Baby Steps
When I finally realized that the best approach is to take it one step at a time, this is what happened:
1 – I was able to deepen my practice;
2 – Gradually bring Reiki back into my life;
3 – See changes because I understood what I was healing;
4 – Find a rhythm suitable to my present self;
I took the time to refresh my knowledge, and it paid off.
Perhaps there’s no perfect solution.
But one thing is for sure.
It’s challenging to trust Reiki in isolation, without the proper support and guidance.
It’s even harder when faith is lost.
There’s always the option to read books and revisit old notes as I did.
Maybe attend a seminar or two.
These can work, but it’s time-consuming and can lead to procrastination and a lot of frustration.
I couldn’t find anything to suit my needs at the time.
Having piles of notes and because I discovered a way to make sense of it all, I decided to build my own Reiki Refresher Course.
At first I thought that I’m the only one who needs something like this and others will even laugh when I’ll tell them about my discovery.
Still … I wanted some feedback and face the cold hard truth.
But the reactions were nothing short of amazing…
Like Alexandra who said:
It’s a process that can potentially help people who have lost faith in their abilities (re)start Reiki, get unstuck, and find a smoother path to self-trust and balance.
And … everything can be boiled down to only a few, easy to follow steps.
Let the fog clear away and see the forest for the trees.
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